Compared to the average 24 year old lay about, the amount and variety of nuts and seeds I consume is well above average. I have this on no real authority, just a sunflower powered hunch. I also exercise more than the average male of my age, this I do know from various stats and such. (I won’t cite any and nor will I prove to you that I exercise, if you’re too lazy to find out then that is your business.) All in all, I live a fairly healthy lifestyle, I’ve even been known to participate in yoga and mediation on occasions. And while all this is well and good, I also have a few small vices; I do love red meat, I have a slight penchant for alcohol assissted reverie and when the time is right I’ll get mashed out ma brain on good quality narcotics. (Sorry, that sentence took a sudden turn of the Danny Dyers.) With all this in mind, and it is often on my mind, I wonder; firstly – does this constitute modern holistic living, and secondly – is my lifestyle actually healthy or am I being hopeful? Will there be knock on effects?

Health is a state of homeostasis, a balance of mental, physical and societal wellness must exist for someone to be deemed healthy. From this perspective, I am healthy. Thank fuck for that. However, this definition is not a cure-all, it’s more a blank canvas apon which we get to smear whatever doesn’t work.
Truth be told, I know I am healthy now, but I wonder about the future, I wonder about my friends and loved ones and where their holistic balance lies? (What a terribly morbid cunt I hear you cry!)
The definitions we use to pigeon hole ourselves or others have been passed down through a world which is now unrecognisable to when these concepts took shape.
And so, my question is this, can we even achieve modern holistic living?
Walking down the street in any city and  my brain aches and hums. The tragedy is too much to bear, yet some of us do it on a daily basis. Adverts, poverty, multi-national corporations, risk, violence etc. It can’t be good for a persons psyche. Go online and hide and you are similarly bombarded with even more horrific sights and practices of our time and through light emitting diodes which stop you sleeping. Escape to spirituality if you can and you may fuel something equally as dark.
The feeling of being physically healthy is an empowering, addictive sensation which more and more people are becoming obsessed with, thanks again in part to multi-national corporations pedalling body image lies. Aesthetics are important. Aesthetics are important.  Aesthetics are important.
Let your hair down with a drink and whatever else you enjoy and you fund crime and death whilst poisoning ourselves.
We can’t win. Health is not deigned to exist in this day and age.
The halcycon holistic living of the past, where you could enjoy the hedonism of friends with the graft of work and the spirit you believe in, is dead. Life has multiplied, where does technology fit in the balance? And consumerism? And modern hedonism? And sex as we know it?
Is there a balance for a person growing up with all this around them?
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I suppose the choices we make now echo for eternity. Life will not hand you a balance. You need to find it yourself and that is the most frightening part. I enjoy drinking and smoking but I want to think and live well in later life. I love being healthy but I want to learn and better myself mentally too. I don’t want to consume but I want a new thing. It is a constant stream of decisions. Utterly petrifying but get a few right and it’s equally empowering.

Of course these are the (neurotic) thoughts of someone whose socioeconomic placing is so average it negates mention. This same line of processing changes when you use a different computer. If there are any experts out their, please help. Equally I’d welcome any comments or suggestions.

Mr Hummels